Well, i want to begin with the good one. Super excited to tell this. Are you ready? hehe...sooooooo,
I got a scholarship that i wanted. For me, it was a big deal. As you know, tuition fee is kind of big problem for me. Of course, if i hadn't got the scholarship, i wouldn't have dropped out the school but i would have definitely done a part-time job like everyday and somehow would have figured out my tuition fee. But, lucky enough i got the scholarship, this will really help me to concentrate on my study from next semester. Not only study, but it will help me do projects of my wishlists. I want to make an app and apply it on app store (this year's resolution though), also want to upgrade the website and do more projects. Let's go back to talk about moment i read the acceptance e-mail. I was so so happy and couldn't thankful enough people who helped me to get this scholarship. I mean, i as a one person couldn't have done anything. So many friends and people gave me an advice and cheered for me and wished me a luck. Still, i feel so lucky and so thankful. Some of my friends didn't get this scholarship, kind of sad but i believe they will find other one cuz' they have that potential in them.
Okay, let's get right into the bad news. I got bad news from T uni. I am super disappointed myself as a person and i think that i was try to change myself to better. But now i doubt myself that am i really try or is it hard enough. Yes, when you know that your skill is not better than you think, it is so devastating or disappointing moment. It makes me think that am i wish too much than i actually can do or am i okay or live happily with short of skills. Am i wish too much or am i this little? should i accept the truth and feel less pain, or still fight for the chances? Oh boy, I don't know. I wish I could restart the uni life. So much things and opportunity, i just passed. I realised that i missed so much time and chances. One thing i did wrong was i did not have the PURPOSE or PASSION to pursue. That made so much mystery in my life. I was fool, young and spoiled maybe. If i could go 2 years ago, i would tell myself that "be ambitious". That is the one thing i lost through years, or i didn't have at all. Either way, i would tell myself. But sadly, time won't come back. The best thing i can do or we can do this is stay in present do things. Think this way that i may have to pursue my dream, i may take an exam again entry in August and enter in October. Or will give everything next week and get a acceptance from D uni. Maybe i have to take an action more seriously, wish me a good luck!
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