The TRUTH

I am now super scared to hear the truth from his mouth. Logically, i should hear it and move on. But my heart hurt so much. I am just realized that i love him so much like i am begging him don’t go. Inside i am screaming that please stay by my side and be your voice heard. I love you so so so much that i've almost couldn't let you go. IF I beg you, would your heart stay? I want to talk only to your heart. Please just say "You are one i'm looking for or i love so much that i can't imagine a life without you"...
When it happened? Last time, i promised myself never ever gonna hurt myself, my heart like this.
But it too impossible to hold myself and at the same time love him. SO, I choose to trust him because i asked him (can i trust you?) and he said yes. That night, we talked so many things. I was over the moon happy. From that night i am completely trusted him. But he still trying to rip me off, just test my patience i think. But this several weeks, i thought a lot about our relationship.
And i have only one question "Are you gonna love each other forever?".